It’s 4am and I’m wide awake because apparently my body has decided to resist sleep. I’m usually a sound sleeper. I’m the kind of sound sleeper that will sleep through a fire alarm and refuse to get up, even whilst knowing that there is a minor fire in the apartment building. True story, bro.
I’ve been having restless nights the past few months and I think it’s in direct correlation with my anxiety about my thesis. God, I’m so tired of saying thesis. I sound like such a broken-record. Also, it has now become a taboo word for me, like Voldemort. That’s right, I’m a Harry Potter fan. To be clear, I am a fan of the books. They defined my childhood. The movies will always pale in comparison. Wait, what was I saying? Oh yeah, thesis.
I’m sitting/sleeping here trying to figure out my game plan for the day. I’m slowly coming out of my funk from the past few days, which means that it’s time to get down to business. I still have those overdue library books to return. Don’t judge me and my hermit ways. For the record, I think it’s cruel to charge money for overdue books. Damn my mind and it’s tangents. Anyway, I need to go to the university to return them, which means that I should probably try to get some work done while I’m there. I refuse to waste bus money on just returning books – I wouldn’t be able to live with myself.
I just took a break from writing this to look at pictures/gifs of Chris Pratt. Just thought you should all know. Also, I was on the Chris Pratt bandwagon before he got ripped. He’s just the most adorable and lovable fool on Parks & Rec. If you’re not watching, get on that immediately.
You know it’s amazing how much I write for these posts but ask me to open up my thesis document and my body becomes paralyzed with fear. Perhaps I should treat my thesis as a blog – it is essentially academic ramblings of a nobody (that’s me!). I’m going to go ahead and presume that’s half-way to an “aha” moment. I am desperate and reaching but I don’t care. Thesis = blog. I will put this new mindset to use and report back.
As for now, I’m going back to sleep. To be honest, I will most likely spend the next few hours watching celebrity interviews on YouTube. I have no shame.